What am I waiting for?

A new Year, A new decade and I have made a long list of things I want to do, be, have ..

Once I made the list I thought that I needed to make a 5-10 year plan for myself too.

An hour later I was on the phone with my brother discussing some plans and he said “ When we were in our 20’s and 30’s we had to plan ahead and think differently about our lives. But now in our 50’s lets plan for now and do what we really want to “

And that’s when the tube light went on!

“ WHAT AM I WAITING FOR ”

I should do what I want to now and stop waiting / procrastinating .. I am only being dishonest with myself by not doing what I want to do.

We always find some excuse , some story , some reason to procrastinate.

But the only person we are harming in this process is ourselves. We have this craving in our heart which is not fulfilled. If we cannot feel fulfilled then, how can we be totally and completely happy with ourselves?

As Dr. Wayne Dyer said “ Go for it now. The future is promised to no one “ 

I am not saying that we have to do everything we want to right now .. But if You can, then why not?

Often I hear myself saying – Ok let me wait .. I really want to do this, but let me wait till next year as there is quite a bit happening now. But there will always be quite a bit happening in our lives as that is what life is all about.

There are so many things we all feel we want to do, we want to feel, we want to have, we want to be. And the longer we wait, all we are doing is making the list longer.

Life is beautiful .. so let’s enjoy and cherish and stop waiting ..

Do you also find that all our lives have become busier over the years?

The years seem to be passing by faster?

There just don’t seem to be enough hours or days to do all that You want to?

And we try and juggle so many things in our lives ..in the bargain not giving importance to what we really want to do, say, be, have ..

So now, as I turn a year older soon, in my heart I have decided to take steps to start Living more in the Now.

Often we don’t share what we want to express to people. So I will start by saying A BIG THANK YOU to all of You who read my blogs and encourage me in the process to write and share more.

I want to have more discipline in my life for myself .. more balance and that You will read about in my next blog 🙂

Spending time in whichever way possible with friends and family is something I always do .. And now I have promised myself to make sure I spend quality time with myself too.

I have been thinking about going for a quiet retreat the last 3 years .( the last one was 3 years ago a 10 day Vipassana course )   I keep reading and researching all the different places. Today as I type this I have booked my flight, my retreat and am off the end of this month for a 7 day retreat.

Now that I think back – What was I waiting for?

Nothing in my life can change unless I decide to change it. 

Change will not come if we wait for some other person or some other time. We are the ones we’ve been waiting for. We are the change that we seek. - Barack Obama

So I have decided to motivate myself and YES!! I do feel fantastic when I feel motivated.

Would You like to be motivated to?

Don’t wait till tomorrow .. Start today.

Today, take the first step towards doing , being, having, saying all that You have been wanting to.

Ask yourself, WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR?

Here’s to a Motivated New Day, New Year and a New Decade.

A Decade later

CHANGES… !!!!

Let’s discuss what has happened to us over the last decade. 10 Years .. A decade .. so much has happened ..so much has…

What has changed?

Am still Anjana .. playing all the roles I have come here to play in my life. At my core, I still feel I am very similar to what I was as a child. A lot remains the same.  Do you know I hated going to the movies as a child as I found it very dark and loud.? 10 years ago, my husband and sons would go and I couldn’t .. still the same. The compassion I feel for people around I still did have as a child too ( It’s what been said to me by people at my Parents home )  I am still fun-loving .. Loved music and dance. Always wanted to look after everyone around me ( even if it was my sisters or my soft toys 😉 ) And now I feel that I want to look after all the Young ones around. I have a great relationship with most of my friends children and love the connect. It also helps me tap into my inner child.

Physically, well, see the photo all the way down… 10 years on .. I definitely don’t have the energy to dance like I used to 10 years ago. And I could sleep for 10-12 hours those days which now Impossible! I know there is a slight change in my physical body too ..But that’s Ageing ( and I hope to do that gracefully ) Also believe it or not, I definitely can not party the way I used to back then. . Ha Ha Ha!!! But I will still go to Winter wonderland and hope the kids play all the games and win lots of soft toys for me.

This is me ..December 2017 so excited with all the soft toys we had all won.

Emotionally – I think I have matured a bit ( But that You need to ask my Family and Friends ) I am still pursuing my passion which is Holistic Healing and Coaching. I may be a bit more Calm? Not as hyper as I used to be .. OK OK I know a lot of You are going to comment on this.  I do enjoy all that I am doing and love the few small changes I have made to enhance my life.  The simplest one being – Self-care and Self-love ( which I shall write about in on of my next few blogs )

But there is a bit of a debate in my head >

“ HAVE WE TRULY CHANGED? “ 

“ WHAT IS THIS CHANGE?”

From within .. what has changed? Aren’t we the same people we have always been? This is a really big question .. and as I sit and write and contemplate about this, the one thing I truly feel is I as a being have not changed. I have grown, moulded, matured, experienced things in life that have affected my way of thinking or reacting.

What has changed and can change is just the way we can and do respond to things around us. The way we react to situations. Our experiences influence us. We grow in certain ways and that’s where we feel the outer change comes from. People, I feel do not change. Their priorities may change. Their attitude towards things may change. When people are hurt or dejected etc. they often change their behaviour. Their behaviour towards life, towards you, towards me .. But what changed was not them. It is the feelings, their attitudes , their priorities, their thinking , their experiences which influence their thoughts and thus make them feel and seem different.  As I was going through this holistic journey, I moulded? I suddenly wanted different things. In this process, I lost certain friendships .. But think about it .. I had CHANGED my behaviour… what I thought was my priority then was no more. What I did for fun then, was not the same I felt now… I decided to change the way I wanted to be – not them .. so why should I blame them??

Is this too confusing???? Hmmm!!!!

OK ..So as this is holiday season I do not want to make this a very heavy read ..

So if in 10 years I do not post another photo with something weird on my head, You can definitely ask me “Why have You changed Anjana??”

HAPPY HOLIDAYS MY FRIENDS

WILL CONNECT WITH YOU IN 2020